December 2009
13 posts
This time around, the fear will not overcome me.
Yes I tested, even the other night, I have no
definte certainty, only in my heart.
Only forwards
My commitment has to drive me, not the all consuming
searching, for what is there already. Reaching acceptance
and being happy where one is. If it is a balancing act,
then priorites have being learnt in the last year, of
what means most.
Here, alone together, yet we are together,
not in presence, yet somewhere deeper
Someplace, hard to reach,
Yet eternal it will remain.
Search and Result.
I listened to an elder, and she guided me.
Trying to be consumed by searching proved a useless and fruitless affair.
Especially as it was there all along.
The search is over.
The right decision has been made - it is felt through body, mind and spirit.
Is it the strangeness of being reunited, the disbelief that I believe yet have arrived?
It is more than being right, it is being at home, and being there, for each other.
I believe it, I care, I will hold the feeling and protection, and totally lose the fear.